"Winter, spring, summer or fall. All you've got to do is call. And I'll be there-you've got a friend"-James Taylor I have always been a pretty private person. I was always very open with my family & the people I loved-but I kept my circle small. To be honest blogging hasn't been easy for me. I have revealed some things in this blog, such as our struggle with infertility, that very few knew about. I don't know when or how it even happened, this new openness. But somewhere along the way it just became ok for me to bear my soul before others-many of whom I do not even know. I suppose it has come from a deep desire to make sense of where we are at & in hopes that it will touch even just one person.
I am learning that it's ok to make yourself vulnerable & put yourself out there sometimes. I am also learning the value of friendships. When you are tested you learn quickly who your true friends are. We have. Our true friends are the people who have blown up our phones with calls & texts. They're the people who insisted on being there for Joel's CT scan just to be by our side (Love you Teresa & Chris). The people who have sent emails-asked to cook for us-made us laugh-cry with us-run errands for us-the list goes on & on. You learn quickly how important friendships are to your life-how much you need one another. 30 minutes after we received Joel's news we had friends at our home. Those are true friends. We will never forget the kindness we have received from others. It has humbled us.
In the Bible there is a story in Exodus 17 about a battle between the Israelites & the Amalekites. During this battle God had instructed Moses to keep his arms lifted & as he did the Israelites would win the battle. Time wore on & Moses grew tired. As his arms started to sag the Israelites began to fall behind in the battle. There came a time when Aaron & Hur had to stand there & literally hold up Moses' arms for him. That is how our friends have been for us. They have been the ones to come & hold us up when we felt we couldn't fight this battle. I will forever be grateful to them.
I challenge you today to examine your friendships. What kind of friend are you? I know life is busy-we all are-but be honest with yourself. When your friend is going thru a time of need are you there for them? When you say you will pray for someone do you really? As someone who has been the person in need I can tell you that your friends can never give you enough help. You can never tell them you love them enough. You can never be there for them enough. You can never offer enough support to them. At times it can be the only thing to keep you going.
I hope, in the future, that I can be half the friend to my friends as they have been to me. We really do hold each others arms up. And God puts you in peoples lives for a reason. Don't ever get so busy that you over look that.
Joel had a little bit of a challenging day. We had the last Dr appointment today that he will have until our pre-surgery consult on Wednesday. We plan to spend Memorial weekend at home taking it easy. Joel has felt so good it's almost easy to forget that he was sick. Then he had a day like today & it is sobering & really makes us realize what an uphill journey we have ahead of us. Please keep us in your prayers.
Sarah & Joel