***Total disclaimer here guys-I am NO fan of Oprah. She pretty consistently annoys me with all of her "remember your spirit talk" as well as her overly excited proclamations "YOU'RE GETTING A CAR-YOU'RE GETTING A CAR-YOU.....ALL........ARE........GETTING.......A......CAR!!!!!" I try to stay away from her show as much as possible-but she always manages to suck me back in by having a show that piques my interest. Darn her.***
So I was watching the Oprah show the other day (insert disclaimer here). She had taken her whole audience to Australia & I was watching to see what adventures they went on while there. (Australia-amongst many other countries-is on my list of places that I would like to visit one day). During the show she said something that struck me. Let me preface this by saying that this by saying that this was her first time to ever visit Australia. They had done many, many amazing things during this trip but one of the most amazing things was a sail through Sydney harbor on a boat with a huge "Oprah sail" (because Oprah likes to keep things low-key). Any way, after that moment she was talking to all of her viewers that had come along on the trip with her. "I remember as a poor young girl growing up on a dirt road in Mississippi worrying about not being even able to have a little lunchbox with my name on it. If only I knew then, as that young poor girl, that later on I would be in a Sydney with a regatta of 20 boats with my name on it. If I could I would go back to that little girl & tell her-don't worry about your lunchbox baby girl, you have a regatta in your future."
What is the moment between the lunchbox & the regatta? It's the process-it's the journey. You never know at the start what the ending will be. If someone had told us as soon as Joel was diagnosed "don't worry about now-in 5 years this will be behind you & you will be fine" then I wouldn't even spend one minute worrying because it would be unnecessary. Yet I say that I have the faith & belief that we will have the outcome we have prayed for-then why do I worry? It's the time between the lunchbox & the regatta. Most of you know that Joel & I have spent over 4 years trying to get pregnant. It still hasn't happened. I remember many days of tears of not understanding why but I also remember thinking "if only I knew one day that it would for sure happen I would be fine to wait until it did. I just need to KNOW that it will one day." Really though-why do I need to know the end result in the future to have faith & trust today? It's the moment between the lunchbox & the regatta.
In the Bible it says that He cares about "all things concerning us." Therefor, my belief is, He will work all things together for my good. He has time & time again but I still worry & I still wonder "why". Hearing her say those words gave me a different picture. It made me wonder how many times God is up there saying "Baby girl-don't focus on this little lunchbox-you have a regatta in your future." And it challenged me to take this verse even more to heart : “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
He works ALL things together for my good. I do have a regatta in my future, I just have to trust that day by day I am getting even closer to it. But one day I WILL get there. Until then-I still have my lunchbox...