"How lovely is your dwelling place,Lord Almighty! My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God."
"Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere;"
My friend Julie read the above verse in church this morning and I saw this verse in a way that I had never seen it before. Better is one day in the courts of The Lord than a 1,000 days (or one could say a lifetime) elsewhere. Joel and I had some amazing moments on this earth. We got to have a home together, we got to do some traveling together, we got to have a child together, thousands and thousands of days and moments together. All of those moments were incredible and they are all still the top moments of my life. But no matter how amazing those moments were Joel's first day in Heaven-that one day-was better than all of our greatest moments we shared together on this earth. That doesn't diminish in any way the moments that we shared because they were bliss. Rather, it tells you that if one day in Heaven can trump a lifetime of our most amazing moments on earth, Heaven must be a pretty incredible place.
On my way to church this morning the scene that unfolded before me was beyond words. The sky was a swirl of gorgeous pastels, the clouds majestic and the sun peaking from behind the clouds was bursting forth with golden rays. I quickly grabbed my phone to try and take a picture of this, the most beautiful sky I had ever seen. As I was driving away it struck me that as beautiful a site as this was, it pales in comparison to the beauty of Heaven. The most beautiful thing that I have ever seen is like .00000001 of the beauty that I will see one day.
I never spent very much time thinking about Heaven until my best friend went there. Now I spend a lot of time thinking about it. The more I think about it the more I realize that Joel truly is the one who won in this situation. We all are the ones that have to stay here in a world full of struggle, of hurt and pain. Yes, there are incredible moments that we get to spend on this earth. One of the most memorable moments of my life was jumping out of a plane. I know some of you might think I'm crazy, but there's something about throwing your body out of a plane thousands of feet in the air. I had never felt so small and I had never felt more alive. That moment is nothing compared to how alive I will feel when I get to Heaven. In fact, I tend to think that once I get there I will probably feel like this thing called life was never even really living at all. Where Jesus is-is life, and it's joy and it's love and it's perfection. Joel is experiencing all of these things this very instant. I am so happy for my husband, I truly am, even though selfishly I wish he was here with us instead. I just know that the more I think about it I can hardly wait for it. I know there is work for us to do here but I can't stop myself from daydreaming about what it must be like. Oh to experience perfect love, life and peace like I have never known, in this most incredible place...one day.