So this time our test results weren't as cut and dry as they normally are. I am sure that you could tell that by the length of time it took me to post them. The reason is because we only got them yesterday-yes yesterday 2 weeks after his scan. The reason is because after Joel had his CT scan, a few days later the hospital called us about "an area of concern" on his left side where the kidney was removed. This was Joel's first post-chemo scan and honestly the very last words you want to hear are "area of concern". Still, we tried to just stay calm and move forward. The next thing that they wanted him to do was an ultrasound of the area. It took them a few days to get him scheduled and took us many days after that to get the results. It basically came back that they did not see anything on the ultrasound. We met with our OU doctor yesterday and due to the fact that CT scans are so hard on the body he does not want to do another one at this time. He thinks the best thing to do is to wait until Joel's next scheduled CT scan in 3 months. This is the part where I have to really control my thoughts and really control fear because if I let myself-I could run wild with it. But really-we are both just making the choice to not go that route. Instead of focusing on the "area of concern" we are going to focus on the fact that his ultrasound came back clear and we are going to just believe that the next scans will be completely clear-with no doubts about it. It is a choice that we make every day to not let cancer rule our lives. It's been a year and a half and we still have to make that choice every day. It's not always easy but it's the only choice that we will accept.
Thank you for your prayers and thank you for believing with us for the all-clear in January.
We love you,
Joel & Sarah