Slow Going

Joel has now completed 6 days of rehab and things are moving pretty slowly. The pain meds have made things complicated. Since Joel has undergone 2 major surgeries he is still understandably on some major pain medication. The issue with that is it inhibits his ability to fully give 100% during his therapy sessions. Doctors have been really working with him to try to find a happy medium between letting the pain get out of control and him still being able to get the most that he can out of therapy.The team of doctor's get together each week and evaluate his progress as to when he might be able to come home. At this point in time they do not have an end date in mind of when that will be. We were originally told 2 weeks-30 days but have now been told to possibly prepare for longer than that. I want what's best for my husband so I want him to be able to soak up as much therapy as he needs to put him in the best possible physical place that he can be in. Selfishly, I want him home like last week. It has been 20 days since his surgery and in so many ways it seems like 20 weeks. We just miss him more than anything.

A friend sent me this verse this morning and it so spoke to my heart.

For what you have done I will always praise you in the presence of your faithful people. And I will hope in your name, for your name is good. Psalm 52:9

Yesterday I just had this revelation of how important it is to continue to praise and magnify the goodness of God and what He has already done in our situation. Are we where we want to be at this very moment? Absolutely not. Does it feel like we are seeing the progress yet that we want? No to that question as well. But the other night I was at the end of the bed giving Joel a foot rub with some oils. Throughout this whole life event at times I have felt so helpless-but rubbing his feet is something comforting that I know I can do-and I have done so every single night without fail. Well as I was rubbing his feet I was feeling so down about where we are at in this process. It was then that God just brought to my remembrance a time not that long ago when I rubbed his feet and he was in the ICU on a ventilator totally unresponsive. From that point to where we are now he has progressed by leaps and bounds. Still, when you are in the thick of it, it can be hard to not get frustrated that it is taking so long to get from where you are to where you truly want to be. It's important for us to take things day by day, not forget the little victories, and praise God that He's brought us from where we were to where we are now. He hasn't left us and He's not through with us yet. So we continually make a choice to place all of our hope in His name-for His name is good.

PS-If you are a friend of Joel's he told me he wants some visitors! :) Visiting hours for friends are every night after 4:00 until around 7:00. I know he would love to see those of you who would like to come by.