For those of you not familiar with where we started HERE it is-the very first blog post that I ever wrote. This post was the very beginning of our cancer journey. A couple weeks after we received Joel's cancer diagnosis he had a major surgery to remove the cancer. You can read about that HERE. In reading back over those blogs you could tell that I felt like that was the end of our cancer journey. Little did I know it had only just begun. It is hard to even comprehend that here we are 3 years later facing yet another major surgery. When I even think about tomorrow I get knots in my stomach. The school of cancer is the most impressive school that I have ever attended. Radical-life changing and yet in these past years as much as I have learned I realize there has been much that I had forgotten. I had forgotten just how powerful it can be when people pray and stand with you on your behalf. I am talking crying, interceding and standing in the gap for you. We are so blessed to have people like that in our lives. And oh the blessing of the community of the church. They have rallied around us-surrounded us on every side-faithful to us in our every need. There is that special place of extreme pain but it's an amazing place to be in, truly. God speaks to you through situations all day long and He sends people to you at just the right times. He wraps you up and holds you close and you feel Him closer than ever before. Life can get in the way of that-pain brings you back to that place-and even though it hurts there is so much beauty in that brokeness and vulnerability. I had forgotten. How had I forgotten? I do not know. But here I am yet again hating that we have to go through it but feeling so honored that we do at the same time. Because in our suffering we get to feel Him and know Him. Our prayer is that God will continue to move so radically on our behalf that there will not be one Doctor, Nurse, Medical Student, Friend, Visitor, Blog Reader etc. that does not see His healing power and greatness at work in our lives. I know there are some that read this and doubt that and wonder why we have gone through this. Don't. Just watch and see what He is going to do because it is going to be amazing. We trust in where He is leading us and that He will never let us go. Here are some practical prayers. Please pray for the surgeons hands to be guided tomorrow. Please pray that the tumor will be easily removed, in its entirety, without any loss of Joel's lung. Please pray for no other cancer in any other area of his lung. Please pay for a smooth surgery and a quick recovery.
We arrive at the hospital and will be waiting an hour or two before he will be taken in. He is the second scheduled surgery that day. I will blog some updates throughout the day as I can. Thank you for your prayers.
So here we go.....again. I don't feel ready. I feel like it was just yesterday. So much has changed since then and we have been richly blessed. And yes it has been a difficult 3 years but He has never failed-and He won't stop now.
We love you!
Come To Me-Bethel Music
I am the Lord your God, I go before you now I stand beside you I’m all around you And though you feel I’m far away I’m closer than your breath I am with you More than you know
I am the Lord your peace No evil will conquer you Steady now your heart and mind Come into my rest And oh, let your faith arise And lift up your weary head I am with you Wherever you go
Come to me, I’m all you need Come to me, I’m everything Come to me, I’m all you need Come to me, I’m your everything
I am your anchor, in the wind and the waves And I am your steadfast, so don’t be afraid Though your heart and flesh may fail you I’m your faithful strength And I am with you Wherever you go
Come to me, I’m all you need Come to me, I’m your everything Come to me, I’m all you need Come to me, I’m your everything
Don’t look to the right or to the left, keep your eyes on me You will not be shaken, you will not be moved
I am the hand to hold, I am the truth, I am the way Just come to me, come to me Cause I’m all that you need