A Day

A day. 24 hours. 1,440 minutes. 86,400 seconds. The clock ticks them down one by one. Sometimes slowly. Sometimes quickly. We all have sad days. We all have happy days. We have mediocre days. We have devastating days. There is one, consistent, thing about each day. It has a beginning. It has an ending.

Lately my heart has had a lot of hard days to handle. It started with Easter Day and continued with Mothers Day. In the next 2 months I will face some of the most difficult days I've had to face. And they're all back to back no less. Fathers Day. My upcoming wedding anniversary. My sons birthday. The one year anniversary of my husbands passing. My birthday. My husbands birthday. Each of these days occur in rapidly close proximity to one another. And he won't be here with us. I will admit, looking ahead to them overwhelms me to the depths. I've faced some difficult ones so far. I'll face some difficult ones ahead.

You know what I'm thankful for? For a day. 24 hours. 1,440 minutes. 86,400 seconds. I'm glad there is a beginning. I'm glad that there is an ending. I'm glad the sun sets, darkens the skies, and sleep finally overcomes me. I'm glad the sun comes back around, creating a cascade of radiant colors dancing across the sky, bringing with it new mercies and hopefulness.

I won't pretend grief is confined to a 24 hour period. It is a constant which becomes all the more difficult on certain dates. As I look back. As I remember. But there's something about making it through the difficult days. A feeling of relief that yes, it was nearly unbearable, and oh so painful, but I made it through. I carry the sadness all the way until my head hits the pillow. That's when the tears flow until my eyelids become heavy. Then mercifully sleep comes. Just as mercifully a new day comes.

I believe it is Gods way of showing us nothing is forever. Even extreme pain and sadness. If we can just trust Him. And keep holding on. The darkest night can give way to the glorious light of day. With new strength. With new life. A new 24 hours. A new 1,440 minutes. A new 86,440 seconds. A new day.